Not saying I want to get badly injured playing derby, noone wants that, but some battle wounds would be nice!
Saturday night I headed out in a blizzard with Jessbot to a scrimmage in Syracuse...what a drive! I wasnt willing to give up the shot to scrimmage though, I had been basically counting down the days for the past 2 months waiting to go...no lung infection or blizzard was gonna keep me from skating!
I felt a bit more confident that I did something at this scrimmage than I did with the Albany scrimmage. I successfully blocked a few times, a couple assists but absolutely 0 hits. Though it was nice to get nailed by someone and have them just bounce off me, finally a sport that my size is a good thing! It was great hearing from another woman in my league how far I have come and getting a big high five, pretty much made my night to know that I AM improving....even though I dont always see it!
NO HITTING!!!! It's like a majorly annoying brain block that keeps me from just doing it, and a woman I skate with said it spot on...I skate with my head and over-think things. YES! Yes I do, I am just a thinker, with everything in life. I also really just need to be more competitive, like hey you Im gonna knock you on your ass because my team IS winning this. I am seriously going to look up some hypnotist cds online to see if there are any to make people competitive, hey its worth a shot!
Aside from the crazy weather and barely being able to breathe while skating I had a blast and was totally bummed when I heard "last jam of the night" and I wasnt on the track. I have that same feeling at practice, if its the last jam and Im not involved I am super bummed...I often feel like if it were up to me I would just keep scrimmaging for hours and hours.
Yesterday I had to miss practice, which always bums me out...but it was because Jessbot and I had to go to my sisters baby shower! I ended up winning 2 prizes for my skills at being at a baby shower? Which is weird to me because Ive only ever been to my sisters. The cut a string to the size you think my sisters 8 month pregnant belly game....I just wrapped the string around my gut and I was seriously only an inch bigger than my sister....this is all funny to me because I knew it would work if I did it that way and because my sister is so tiny that at 8 months pregnant she is barely my size! Overall it was worth missing practice, but now I NEED to skate tomorrow.
Today is a workout free day for me, its my day off from the workout challenge this week. 1 year ago today my grandmother died, and she was the most amazing woman, so smart and confident and just plain badass.....she is my inspiration for everything and it kills me that she will never get to see me skate!
Miss you and love you gramma!