No that isnt some weird WWF wrestling number, that's my lap time from last night. So close...yet so far. I began my week dreaming all night of passing my laps, I even woke up out of sound sleep thinking I was on the track after having passed them. I took that as a sign that its time to kick their butt and ask questions later.......
So, yesterday I woke up, went to the gym for a little over 2 hours.....I hauled ass on the treadmill on the biggest incline possible, did a ton of leg exercises then cooled down with a steady paced bike ride. Had a nice salad with Jessbot then headed to practice a couple hours later. I guess I hadnt really thought my entire day out, and considered my need for speed! I skated through practice not paying too much attention to my laps and trying to keep my impending anxiety attack under control. We scrimmaged hard for the last hour of practice and I refused the chance to jam quite a few times trying to save up my gusto for my laps.
Then it was time....time for 25 short trips around the track that could easily make or break my mood.
I thought that I kept a pretty ok pace, but my left leg cramped up pretty badly, but I kept pushing through.....finally I was finished and my final time was 5:19
Well aint that a load of crap?
19 measly seconds off from being able to bout, 19 seconds off from bragging rights that I had finally made my laps, and 19 seconds off from letting the anxiety of the whole thing fade away.
Those 19 seconds really pissed me off, and anger just so happens to drive me...so when I am skating Friday night, trying my laps again....I will be listening to a little band called "The Pist", the song called "We're Still Pist" and skating my fat ass off!
I was looking for the video of this song...just happened to find a video of the show I was at 4 years ago, dancing in my sports bra in the pit....what a good show! Too bad you cant see me...
So, how do you pick yourself back up after such a close call with success? You march right back into your next practice, lace up your skates and push that much harder. You push through the pain even more than you did the day before, grinding your teeth, squishing your eyebrows, whatever you "SHIT THIS HURTS" face may be....use it, push through and reach that goal you have set for yourself!
Here's hoping Friday will be one BRUTAL day!